down to the bottom

Every human has their down point. I only feel it now.

I can’t blame anyone for it. Though I fall because of someone, I don’t know she was conscious or not, gave me a heartbreaking critic.

That ‘someone’ is the one that really close to me. Someone that know me inside and outside.

I know that it is clisé if I said I must accept all critics with a positive reaction. Everyone knows it. But I don’t know why, this critic really let me down.

That critic makes my negative covered my positive thinking of view.

Yeah, I’m imperfect. I can’t be what she wants me to be. I realized it. I can’t make her proud; I can’t give her what she wants.

Actually, I positively want to cry out to her.

I am not that girl, that girl she want me to be. I am nothing nothing nothing.

I still can’t change my point of view though she is back to normal now. I still can’t blame anyone. Not her that make me down. Obviously not her.

I can't blame anyoune but myself.