i am a grain in the sea

well, recently i realized. i am nothing in this world. nothing to compared with them.

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i was thinking that they're just a same teenage like me.

another ordinary teens, deal with it.

but, they are really different.

they're more than 'just' teens.

they are 'the' teens.

i look at my rewards.

only usual rewards from school, and from a small city in east kalimantan.

but look at them.

school-state-province-national-asean-asia-WORLDWIDE.

whooa.

i'm a grain in the sea.

actually, i hate to compare my self with another people.

i hate anybody compare me with someone.

but, i don't know why i make an excuse for today.

lalalalala.

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so, i take the positive things.

THEY ARE ROLE MODELS FOR ME.

i will do my best to give the best.

i will prove to them, i am NOT just a teen.

i am THE teen.

when i only can see and hear it, not feel it

well.

i don't know what, am i supposed to be happy (like how i feel now), or am i supposed to be sick of this situation.

this feeling is complicated.

yes i am happy for it.
and
no, i'm sick and it's aching.

i know i'm being difficult now.
i know you don't understand what this post about.
but i need to post this.
i need to throw this poison from my mind.

sick SICK sick SICK.

i cannot cry. i cannot lie. i cannot manipulate myself.

i am happy, i'm sure. this feeling is sharp.
but i also broken.

aaaah.

yeepees!

finally, the sun is shining again, mesmerizing me with the mighty light!
and the smell of new breeze is surrounding my world.
the sun brings me so much nice things!

i really want to say something to the sun.
maybe some short hi, or simple smile to him.
but the sun seems so busy.
the sun must light all the world, because the world needs him.

i want to give a hi five to the sun, but his hand never five me.
only a warm touch of his hot shiny light.
well, it is okay, maybe soon, i think.

i always wait for the sun, always and still.
but sometimes the sun makes me sweaty.
he makes me wet!
he is so hot that my skin becomes more tan everydays.

but still, the sun makes me happy.
although the sun prefer the cloud than me, i say this loud : "I LIKE YOU SUN!"
maybe more than the cloud does.

Picka Sunset!

Hi all :)

Today, I post some of my recent pictures.
These all pictures I took from my house's second floor.

I was so excited, because the sky was so beautiful.
I couldn't imagine how! Crazily awesome.

I like the sunset, it makes me feeling good :D

Well, enouh talking, please enjoy the pictures!