Lagi Pusing Belajar

Selalu deh, Sabtu itu hari yang paling kosong dan UNPRODUCTIVE.

Gue seharian di kamar, literally seharian, keluar cuma beli Indomie di Starmart lantai bawah. Ga ada gangguan dari siapa pun, hanya aku dan kamar *gaya lo*. But serius lah, gila kondisi dan situasi yang sangat-sangat kondusif kan buat belajat.

TAPI....................

Ngapain aja gue seharian ini? Benar-benar engga ngapa-ngapain. Engga melakukan hal berguna yang bisa membantu ujian gue, dan membantu gue untuk menjadi dokter nantinya. Gue cuma bobo manis di ranjang, mending tidur, cuma ngotak-ngatik internet. Ga ngurangin ngantuk, ga nambah semangat.

NYESEL MEN!

Sudah dua kali Sabtu gue lewatin dengan melakukan kemalasan, aktivitas pembodohan seperti ini.

Ga nyadar apa SOOCA tinggal beberapa hari lagi. HAH HAH HAH???
Masih banyak banget case numpuk belom dibaca. Emang EMS uda nyentuh HAH? NBSS aja belom kelar! (maaf buat yang engga ngerti istilah ini, nanti aja gue jelasin)
Gila lu, Ga. Cukup. GILA.

So sekarang lu malah nulis di blog. YAK, anak pintar. *ironis*
Yaudalah men, daripada selonjoran ga jelas di kasur.

Be right back. Gue belajar dulu. Doain ya supaya beneran belajar *walaupun ini lagi ada Indonesia vs Thailand di TV*

Lilin, Lampu dan Matahari

Aku adalah lilin,yang sinarnya berpendar-pendar. Tidak konsisten. Kadang redup jika angin bertiup, kadang terang.

Dia adalah lampu, yang menyala dengan sungguh terang jika tombol itu ditekan. Selalu menyala, sampai tombol itu kembali ditekan.

Lilin ingin menjadi lampu. Yang tidak butuh korek untuk menyala.
Lampu tidak peduli dengan lilin. Lampu kokoh pada tempatnya menempel di atap. Tapi lampu menginginkan matahari, dia matahari.

Matahari yang tidak pernah padam. Siap menerangi seisi rumah, kota, bahkan bumi. Sumber energi tiada tara.

Lilin melihat lampu hingga sumbunya habis. Lampu melihat matahari hingga putus. Matahari tetap di atas, tidak melihat lampu, apalagi lilin.

Hari Ini

Tentang Talenta

Salah sendiri lu engga pake talenta lu, akhirnya itu diambil dan dikasih ke orang lain.
Hah, sekarang lu cuma bisa memangku dagu dan menganga melihat orang lain yang keren-keren, kan.
SALAH SENDIRI!

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Tentang Aku

Cuma orang yang luar biasa sabar yang bisa menghadapi gue.
Gue forever alone, engga ada yang mau sama gue.

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Dysmorphic. I am totally screwed up today.

Types

For me, based on curcolan of my friends and some of my own experience, there are two types of guys (or maybe combination of those types).

First
A very pessimist guy.
"Ga mungkin ada yang suka sama gue."
"Jelas banget dia ga suka sama gue."
"She's out of my league."
Even after all the actions the girl made, he just can't realize that she's into him. HAH!

Second
An overly over confident guy.
"Gila dia kalo balas bbm gue panjang-panjang!"
"Anjirrr, dia ngeliatin gue."
"Hahaha, dia kan suka sama gue."
HEI! Maybe the girl do it to all other guys or she's just too nice!

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Anyway, I'm really into Seth and Summer from The O.C. right now! :D

My Best Friend

In the end, you realized that you have no one but Jesus...

A great best friend that will hold your hand,
will give a big smile to turn down your grief,
one that will wipe your tears even when those tears haven't fallen yet,
hold your hands in your pain,
hug you to share the warmness,
give his jacket to warm you up,
dancing in the rain with you,
laugh out loud with you,
cry with you..

Jesus, I have no one but You.

Saturday Night

It's a kind of a funny conversation I had with my mother. It happened yesterday, Saturday night, while I was at my room (well, I am now) apart from my family at Gading Serpong.

I actually was not in the mood for talking with anyone, but since she is my mom so I should talk to her no matter what mood I'm in, right? LOL.

Mama: Kak, lagi ngapain?
Me: Lagi belajar, ma. Dari tadi siang belom belajar. Ini baru mau mulai belajar.
Mama: Ya ampun. Malam minggu kayak gini mana ada anak muda yang belajar. Harusnya kamu jalan-jalan sama pacar.
Me: (mikir sebentar dan ketawa dalam hati) Ya kali, ma! Pacar aja belum punya!
Mama: Cari dong! Itu si Nathan aja sampai nengok pas mama bilang pacar.
Me: (teringat si Nathan mau beli jas buat pernikahan gue) Hahaha. Emang si Nathan!

...so the conversation continue to another topic...

I recalled that my mother talking about pacar for several times. It's a code, a sign. I should looking for one. Christmas holiday I'll go to Malang, I'm sure that my grandma will ask me about pacar too.

Gila gue bisa stres. Yaudalah, emang belom ada yang ngedeketin. Belom ada yang cocok juga.

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Sakit dan Sendiri

Hello my fellow blog reader!

I wish you all are well.

I am pretty much sick, like really sick, today. I caught cold, I assume when I went home with Primajasa on Friday. That's sucks, because it's my first time back home after three weeks staying at Jatinangor.

So I went to Klinik Padjajaran today. I actually want to get a surat sakit but instead of it, si dokter hanya memberikan resep obat decongestant and painkiller. Sebagai mahasiswa kedokteran, sebenernya gue ga mau sembarangan minum obat kalo emang ga perlu. Namun berhubung ga enak sama kliniknya, gue tebus aja obatnya. Ternyata plus kontrol ke dokter hanya perlu membayar 35000 rupiah. Yasudahlah...

Sesampainya di kamar, I cooked roti cane, ayam goreng, sama panasin rendang. Rada gila emang, lagi flu gini malah masak. Abis itu gue nyapu dan ngepel kamar. Ckckck. Padahal, gue ga ikut latihan futsal dan kemah pmk karena mo istirahat di kamar. Tapi apa daya, kamar rasanya sumpek dan kotor.

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Saat sakit gini, gue ngarep banget lagi di rumah. Kalo di rumah itu, paling engga bisa manja dikit deh, walaupun kadang ga dihirauin juga. Terus kan makanan minuman lengkap, jadi ga usah ngurusin diri sendiri mesti repot-repot masak dulu. Bedaaa banget rasanya sakit sendiri itu mah. Capek.

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Kalo sakit, bawaannya pengen seluruh dunia tau lagi sakit. Haus akan perhatian banget kayaknya, hahaha. Mau gimana lagi, sepi banget di kamar. Tadi ada temen ngetok kamar, ngarep banget dijenguk gitu. Eh ternyata si temen cuma minta saus sambal. PHP niii. *JK JK*

Yaudalah ya, emang lagi ditakdirkan buat sendirian. Tapi ya gimana juga, tadinya mo belajar sama temen eh malah sakit. Kasian juga temen gue kalo tar malah ketularan. Terus gue kayaknya juga belom kuat kalo disuruh belajar nih. HIIIIIIIIIKS :"""""( Case demi case sudah menumpuk tiada henti.

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Well then, I hope you'll wish me to be well soon. Hehehe *ngareeep*

God bless you all!

Amsal 17:17

I want to have a real best friend.

Like the one that's in Proverbs.

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But nobody's perfect.

In the end you know that the one and only best friend that always there for you is Jesus Christ.

Hebrew 11:1

This is my favorite bible quote :)

Bible Bookmarks

I have a project! I am making bookmarks with bible quotes.

I know I am no pro. My design is not good. But I like doing this. Hope this can be a blessing to everyone.

This is my first product :) Please wait for others to come!

Merangkai Kata

Pagi. Sunyi.
Benda elektronik yang memancarkan sinyal itu berada di bawah bantal
Menanti anggota gerak ini menggapainya
Memencet tombol buka dan melihat layar

Kosong. Melompong.
Yah sejak kapan ada yang menghubungi di waktu malam hingga pagi
Selain operator yang pesannya sering kali tidak dibutuhkan
Tinggal dibuang saja ke pembuangan pesan

Oi.
Memang kamu sudah siap
Membuka pesan singkat dan melihat namanya terpampang
Mengangkat telepon dan mendengar suara yang sangat kau kenal, ceritanya

Dari dulu sudah.

Hei.
Itu hanya di benakmu saja
Kau kelebihan endorfin
Bagaimana mungkin kau tidak bahagia dan merasa siap

Yasudahlah.

Semua tidak segampang yang kau pikirkan
Siapkanlah dirimu, hatimu, pikiranmu, semuanya
Keluarkanlah yang terbaik dari dirimu
Jadilah demikian

Lalu kau bisa berkata, aku siap

Are You Sure That...

Are you sure that...

You always put your smile on?
Slow to talk, slow to angry?
You're becoming a good listener?
You give more than you can take, in a good way?
You laugh naturally?
Your prayer is not only about yourself anymore?
You never tired of helping?
You sleep without guilt?
No need to check your handphone for every minutes?
The first and the last person in your mind still is God?
You have a good time management?
You always grateful?
...

At last, are you becoming the best person you've ever been?

Shout! Praises Kids

I'm walking back to my elementary moments. I used to love Hillsong United (though I'm only at third grade) and their More Than Life Album. I also like Shout! to the Lord Kids and Shout! Praises Kids.

So I found the track and falling in love once more. Now that I'm big enough to understand the song and the lyric, I'm really glad that I listen to the songs once more. The songs are beyond great, with encouraging lyrics.

All I Want to Do 

All I want to do is be close to YouAnd all I want to say is thank You for the wayYou love me, You love meAll I want to do is be close to You
And all I want to sayIs thank You for the wayYou love me, You love me
You are faithful to all that You have promisedAnd loving in all of Your waysAnd still with all of my failingsYou love me, You love me, You love me
La, la, la, la, la

All About You

You are the holy one
You are the living word
You are the center of my focus, Jesus
You are the son of God
You are the the solid rock
You are the center of my focus Jesus
You're the lover of my soul
And I adore You only

It's all about You
All about You
It's all about You Jesus
It's all about You
All about You
It's all about You Jesus

You are miraculous
You are supernatural
You are the center of my focus Jesus
You are all powerful
You are so wonderful
You are the center of my focus Jesus
You're the lover of my soul
And I adore You only

Let's Think About God 

Let's think about our GodOur Savior and our KingThe One who gave it allHe gave up everythingLet's think about the ManWho she'd His precious bloodSo we could be His friendsHis friends until the end
And give our love and praise to HimHe is our Savior and our friendLet's give our love and praise to HimHe is our Savior and our friend
Let's think about our Father's heartSo right and trueHe's never given upGiven up on me or youLet's think about our GodOf love and mercy freeHe's washed us white as snowFor all eternity
We love You LordWe love You LordJust one thought of YouAnd all we can say is
Let's think about our GodThe high and lofty OneWho says He's never farFrom the brokenhearted onesLet's think about our LordWho formed the stars aboveSo we could have a glimpseOf His glory up above 

Greeting From Here!

In the middle of SOOCA preparation...

Greeting from a doctor soon to be, AMEN!

CHRIS PINE!!!

Christopher Whitelaw Pine.

Simply my new crush.

(Yeah you can guess, I've just watched Star Trek: Into Darkness)

OH MY GOD HIS EYES :""""")

Soundcloud

I just want to say that I love to sing! So I made a Souncloud account:
https://soundcloud.com/agaprita

Please visit! Not that good, but I enjoy doing this.
To GOD be the glory!

DEADLINE

Jadi ceritanya, aku lagi dikejar deadline.

1. CROCUS
Crocus itu adalah majalah yang diterbitkan oleh Persekutuan Mahasiswa Kristen (PMK) FK Unpad. Terbitnya dalam satu tahun ada empat kali. Nah, ini terbitan yang kedua. Aku kebagian artikel tentang kesaksian, lagu rohani, mamae (semacam rubrik kuliner), dan DUDU (dari dan untuk, itu kayak kirim-kirim salam).

Buat yang kesaksian, aku uda kayak nyari-nyariin orang buat kesaksian tapi belom ada yang ngerespon. Huhuhu. Akhirnya aku ambil aja tokoh yang terkenal, seperti Nick Vujinic. If you curious enough, I'll upload it later :)
Buat DUDU aku bahkan belom menyebar kuesionernya. AAAAAAAA. Deadlinenya minggu ini padahal :''')
Buat mamae, aku juga belom wisata kuliner. Hahaha *tertawa pathetic*
Buat artikel lagu rohani, puji Tuhan udah beres.

2. POTATO (Promoting Outgoing To Go Across The Ocean)
Itu adalah acara SCOPE CIMSA dimana aku diberikan mandat menjadi project officer.

Jadi, tadi tuh udah ketemu dr. Wijana, PD 2 FK Unpad, yang berada nun jauh di Bandung cuma buat minta tanda tangan. Tetapiiiiiiihhh, TOR aka proposal yang aku bikin mesti direvisi lagi :''''''''')

Huah. SEDIH DAN KECEWA DAN MERASA BUANG WAKTU. Tapi tak apa. HARUS BERUSAHA.

Alhasil, aku, Gide, Igo, dan Fredric yang berbarengan ke sana malah kuliner makan donat Dy & Dy (harus coba! Donat kentang yang super enak!) dan ke Lampion. Aku makan dory asam manis while melihat Igo makan samchan yang kayaknya enak bets.

3. Draaafftt Huffftthhh
Sebenernya uda nyicil. Tapi belum hafal nih :'''(
Kayaknya uda belajar. Tapi semua seakan menguap.

TIDAK, AGAPRITA! KAMU PASTI BISA! BERUSAHA! KEJAR!

D-27 SOOCA. GOD BLESS YOU!

*maaf yah banyak caps lock. I'm in a super-cheering-myself-up mode now!

From Missing to Found In Action

I suddenly want to write something here. Like a lightning strike a sudden urge into me. There's a lot to tell since I have M.I.A from the blogging world. But I can't help to write all recap of my life. Hah! Like you all wanna read. LOL.

So, praise the Lord UTS has ended since like a month ago. Buuuuuuut, UAS is waiting. A month ahead! Well well. Ask me how is my preparation. I'm gonna answer: NOT BAD. Not a great thing like I have eaten all the draft SOOCA so I can puke words without barely thinking. At least I have made a draft. I need to re-read drafts I made so I can cope with SOOCA. Need lotta practice too. BANZAAAI.

TO DO LIST: Draft flipchart.

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Yesterday I watched Iron Man 3. I.Can't.Say.A.Word. Gilaaaa lah ROBERT DOWNEY JR aka TONY STARK. That superhero. That genius. That philanthropist. That playboy. That LOVER. You should see how he loves Pepper so much, in a such stupidly weirdo way. WOOPS. This is what's wrong in girl. Beside all the technology and gadget and super-duper-cool action in the movie, the most touching is the romantic part. That's making me laugh. Anyway, four and a half stars for this movie. You should watch.

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Starting from last week, Olymphiart has started. It's like Olympic. It got sports, arts, and even a quiz about general knowledge. Hectic. Hectic. I joined futsal, basketball, de ville, and suma cum laude. I'm also a logistic committee. Got to get a grip, eh?

TO DO LIST: Time management.

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Gue mundur dari Liga Medika. HA-HA-HA. Whattt. Actually there's a piece of COWARDLINESS and DISAPPOINTMENT in my heart. But, that part is covered by the part of being responsible and sadar diri concept. Why?
1. Gue ga gitu jago main futsal. Belom sampai 100% yang gue bisa tepatnya. Mengapa? Gue akui gue kurang latian. Jadi banyak yang lebih jago dari gue. Ada 13 orang yang dikirim. 11 pemain dan 2 kiper. So, kalo misalnya gw ikut pun, ada 10 orang yang lebih jago dari gue. Pasti mereka yang akan main. Menurut gue, ga worth it kalo gue ikut tapi gue ga bisa ngeluarin 100% kemampuan gue. Kasian nama FK Unpad.
2. Gue pesimis.
3. Gue merasa tidak sepenuh hati untuk ikut LigMed. Ada beberapa alasan yang ga patut disampaikan di muka umum.

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Yesterday, my purple purse was left at Ngeumong. There was my handphone and precious MP3 player inside of it. So the waiter of the Ngeumong texted my sister and roommate said that my handphone was left. So they bbm me and I AM REALLY THANKFUL for Ngeumong.

LESSON: Mind your things.

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Oya, today I realized that I'm being a bit of pathetic. And EMBARRASSING. HAHAHA. That's so underrated it's making me sick of myself. Guess I've never changed since high school. Any idea what happened with me?
"AGA, PERFECT TIMING. BELIEVE IN PERFECT TIMING."
Hope you'll understand, anyone that read. If any.

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Gue lagi suka banget sama lagu-lagunya Chris Tomlin. Coba denger ini deh:

1. I Lift My Hands

2. Our God

3. Here For You

Tak lupa, ZION yang telah gue miliki sejak lama (sebenernya gue lupa kapan), juga setia menemani. Yang paling gue suka: LOVE IS WAR sama NOTHING LIKE YOUR LOVE. Both led by Jad Gillies. Aduh semoga ini hanya kebetulan. Karena emang demen banget sama Jad Gillies!

...

Let Your love be my companion
In the war against my pride
Long to break all vain obsession
Till You're all that I desire

Turn my eyes to see Your face
As all my fears surrender
Hold my heart within this grace
Where burden turns to wonder

I will fight to follow
I will fight for love
Throw my life forever
To the triumph of the Son

...

Love Is War by Hillsong United

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Lessons you can take from my life, well, a bit :

1. Do everything wholeheartedly. Remember Kolose 3:23.

2. Set priority.

3. Trust Jesus only.

Kind regards,

Agaprita

Kenapa Susah jadi Orang Baik?

God, it seems like I live for my self. I live for CV. I live for my pleasure, for my name. Not Yours like what I have to. I enjoy this live as it is mine only. I know I am wrong God. I am.

Now, I want to be useful for other people. Am I wrong if I have to join some program like baksos? But I fear that my intention is wrong. Again.

God, but is it wrong if I glorify Your name thru other things like PH, or CIMSA? I am confuse.

Help me to choose the right thing, to be who You want me to be. Not who I want to be. I believe every step that I take and every move I make is made for Your glory alone.