Who Am I

I've just gotten my OSCE (about endocrine and nervous system) result today. OSCE is skills examinations for medical students, like how to inject patient, testing reflex, visual exams, hearing exams, etc.

For FK Unpad students, we need to get A for OSCE so we can pass it. For the record, the result won't be included in our GPA. But still, we need to pass. If we don't pass, we can take remedial. But if we again don't succeed in the remedial, we must repeat the OSCE next year.

So, Jesus is BEYOND good. Really exceed expectations. Beyond good.

I pass OSCE without remedial. Which is a miracle. Miracle of the moment.

I remember that I didn't do my best at the OSCE. I failed so many stations. I forgot so many things. But yet, Jesus is with me. I surrendered all to Him and the God of angels armies is with me. He helped me. He guided me. He's so good :')

Another lesson learned:

1. Surrender all to him. ALL. No matter how good you are or how bad you are, leave it all to him. I learned that when you give your all, you let He do things in His way, you'll never be disappointed.

2. Nothing is impossible.

3. Even though you failed Him, you keep on disappointing Him, He will never ever leave you. Never feel alone, never feel you won't get anything. His blessing is countless. Because He saves you is because of His love, His grace to you. Not because of what you've done, or who you are. Just like the song below.

"Who Am I"

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt?
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart?

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done.
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean.
A vapor in the wind.
Still You hear me when I'm calling.
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling.
And You've told me who I am.
I am Yours, I am Yours.

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again?
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me?

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done.
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean.
A vapor in the wind.
Still You hear me when I'm calling.
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling.
And You've told me who I am.
I am Yours.

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done.
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean.
A vapor in the wind.
Still You hear me when I'm calling.
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling.
And You've told me who I am.
I am Yours, I am Yours, I am Yours.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cause I am Yours, I am Yours.

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Jesus have so many creative things to do in our life. Trust Him :)

However, as it is written:

“What no eye has seen,
    what no ear has heard,
and what no human mind has conceived” —
    the things God has prepared for those who love him—

- 1 Corinthians 2:9

Feel So Blessed

I feel so blessed, so so BLESSED.

I don't understand (in Indonesia "engga ngerti lagi") how GREAT, how KIND, how AMAZING Jesus is. Like He is beyond everything I could imagine.

I've never been a good daughter for Him. I sin a lot. I go far across His line. I run from Him. I have no good at all. Yet He grants me His blessings, ALWAYS. Abundantly. Never ending.

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Here is my perspective about feeling blessed.

Feeling blessed doesn't always mean you got everything or you're superior than your other peers. It's about your attitude toward things you got. It's about feeling content and thankful to God for it.

This is what Paul said about contentment:

I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. - Philippians 4:11

So you know contentment is fundamental in feeling blessed. It's not easy for being grateful, saying to yourself that you have enough. One of human nature I know is greediness. Yeah, we always want more more more. One is never enough. That's why I always pray to God that I want to be more thankful in everything.

Another thing about feeling blessed for me is trust. Trust means you put aside all your opinion, your conviction about what's good for you and leave it all to God. Why?

Because this is what the bible says:

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. - Jeremiah 29:11

It's just too good to be true, ain't it? :) When you have faith in God, you trust Him with all of your heart, you have no worry of the future. You'll be thankful of things God gives to you because you know it's the best for you! You'll feel blessed!

These are some of great quotes I got that I really like. Hope that these will build your faith up and make you feel more blessed.

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Friends, never stop being thankful for what He has done. God is good! If you want anything, just ask. He will give you not what you want, but what you need. But I tell you something, He always listens. Maybe your list meet His criteria of best things He wants to give :)

FEEL SO BLESSED! :D